In My Silence

In My Silence I thought I can have the stillness within
In My Silence I thought I can just be me
In My Silence I thought I can run away from this madness
In My Silence I thought I can hide the thoughts that boggle my brain
In My Silence I thought I can wallow in pain
In My Silence

But In My Silence...I can still see Your Hand at work In Me. And I worship and Praise you Lord for your faithfulness despite of my unbecoming.

Yeah, during those time that i never posted anything in this blog... I was dealing so much in me...what happened last october 15 had indeed shook me entirely...went off my spiritual system(not that i stopped praying and meditating God's word...but that hindered me from writing text devotion i regularly send to my friends...even write inspirational or my memoirs here in this blog-this is my ministry, to be public about this)

But the thing is...whenever i wanna get away with it...the more God speaks to me loudly...in my daily devotion, bible readings, through my elders and accountability partners, even through the youth...

This made me Go back to Psalm 139 to reaffirm God's Sovereignty in me. May this blog bless those who are in the same boat. God bless.

Psalm 139
God's Perfect Knowledge of Man
For the Chief Musician. A Psalm of David.

O LORD, You have searched me and known me.
You know my sitting down and my rising up;
You understand my thought afar off.
You comprehend my path and my lying down,
And are acquainted with all my ways.
For there is not a word on my tongue,
But behold, O LORD, You know it altogether.
You have hedged me behind and before,
And laid Your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
It is high, I cannot attain it.
Where can I go from Your Spirit?
Or where can I flee from Your presence?
If I ascend into heaven, You are there;
If I make my bed in hell, behold, You are there.
If I take the wings of the morning,
And dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,
Even there Your hand shall lead me,
And Your right hand shall hold me.
If I say, "Surely the darkness shall fall on me,"
Even the night shall be light about me;
Indeed, the darkness shall not hide from You,
But the night shines as the day;
The darkness and the light are both alike to You.
For You formed my inward parts;
You covered me in my mother's womb.
I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
Marvelous are Your works,
And that my soul knows very well.
My frame was not hidden from You,
When I was made in secret,
And skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.
Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed.
And in Your book they all were written,
The days fashioned for me,
When as yet there were none of them.
How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God!
How great is the sum of them!
If I should count them, they would be more in number than the sand;
When I awake, I am still with You.
Oh, that You would slay the wicked, O God!
Depart from me, therefore, you bloodthirsty men.
For they speak against You wickedly;
Your enemies take Your name in vain.
Do I not hate them, O LORD, who hate You?
And do I not loathe those who rise up against You?
I hate them with perfect hatred;
I count them my enemies.
Search me, O God, and know my heart;
Try me, and know my anxieties;
And see if there is any wicked way in me,
And lead me in the way everlasting.