I’d been quiet for quite awhile. I don’t know if I’d been wallowing in pain but truly for the last weeks, I’m in deep hurting. Much as I would like to share the true cause of this grief, I’d rather keep my mouth say nothing. For those who believe broken heart is cause by broken dreams, broken relationships, broken self—I came to this experience that my broken heart is not due to those brokenness that I’ve mentioned. Sometimes other people whom you dearly loved and revered are experiencing so much pain and facing life’s consequences. And with their encounter of this trial, I’d been hurting too. The time they broke the news to us (members of their d group) I’d been crying over it for two days—and even to this time that I’m writing this, my heart is still cryin out loud, I can’t help tears lurk in the corner of my eyes.
Anyway, we had a youth camp last May 27-29, 2005. To my surprise, I became an instant speaker to one of the sessions. Perfect timing I was asked to deliver the message re: Choices and Consequences. I praise God for his Power in working on that message in the life of the youth who attended. This Module 2 of the youth camp (we did module 1 last year—amazing thing that at the end of that camp last year, the youth grew in number and in spirit mightily) reaped a great blessing not only in their personal lives but also in us, the staff. The last night of the camp, the Youth was able to compose a song for the Lord! Truly with great lyrics and amazing tune, with its originality! As a speaker and God’s worker, I truly praise Him and bring Him honor and Glory that even for that overnight work of my message, feeling so much edgy, pressure and cramming, He magnificently work in our messages, strikes their hearts with so much conviction that when you see them in their eyes you see how they are filled with God’s spirit. The joy in their hearts can not be contained.
I’ll post the excerpt of my message. I edited out my testimony. Though some of the ideas were already posted in some of my article but just the same for the youth, it’s truly for God’s glory.
In my absence for the last few weeks and how I weltered in pain, came for a reason, to increase God’s mighty power, that in my emptiness (I was not truly in the right sense of self, no spiritual composure, not in the right emotional disposition) that He uses me that I’ll be able to testify His greatness. Without Him, I am nothing and my effort is just a filthy rag in His sight. In the silence of my heart, there I communion with God so that He’ll speak His word and proclaim it with the youth. PRAISE GOD!
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