What Is It Like?

Are you intrigued by the title? Surely, it appears sketchy. You can have different infinitive phrases to complete the question. But what I have in mind is “What is it like to be married to me?” That could be one of the toughest questions to answer. I’m sure you will agree it would be easier to give your answer if the question is directed to your spouse: “What is it like being married to you?” Then you can fire away and have a very elaborate essay. The highlights can vary, either you play up and put the spotlight to the positive side of what your spouse do for you or you can expose the negative side of your marriage including his failings… I hope you won’t do the latter because it won’t be ennobling for you to do not to mention you are making your spouse suffer from the ignominy[1] brought by washing your linen in public.

Frustration

I am human and I do feel frustrated at times. When things don’t come my way or the way I hope it would be – I am bombarded with disappointment, sometimes vexation.

How do I cope when I am attacked with this dangerous emotion? Before I share my thoughts about this one, let me exposit the context of this emotion…

Here it goes… I have been waiting for something to materialize… I know God has promised me these things… and I know He will deliver His promises – every single thing of it. However, there is this one thing I truly desire…let me call this stability… the thing is, we don’t know where our promise land is. And I am dying to settle in for good…but as of the moment, it seems like my desire is far from the horizon…and what we have right now are so uncertain, precarious, and shaky. There is no single thread for me to hold on to concerning this promise. So, I am freaking out! Then, frustration tries to sneak into my system… hoping to beat me down and wallow with depression. But I am certainly fighting for my sanity—now that is a hyperbole!

Last Tuesday… I was reading the book of Joshua… God faithfully accomplished what He promised to Moses…and like He said, He would not wipe out all those tribes for a good reason:

Here is what God exactly said:

<< Deuteronomy 7 >>

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22“The LORD your God will clear away these nations before you little by little; you will not be able to put an end to them quickly, for the wild beasts would grow too numerous for you. 23“But the LORD your God will deliver them before you, and will throw them into great confusion until they are destroyed. 24“He will deliver their kings into your hand so that you will make their name perish from under heaven; no man will be able to stand before you until you have destroyed them. 25“The graven images of their gods you are to burn with fire; you shall not covet the silver or the gold that is on them, nor take it for yourselves, or you will be snared by it, for it is an abomination to the LORD your God. 26“You shall not bring an abomination into your house, and like it come under the ban; you shall utterly detest it and you shall utterly abhor it, for it is something banned.

I always believe God knows what is best for us…and whatever is the delay in the completion of His promise…That is because He knows the perfect time for it. His timing is always flawless.

I know God’s promise is a done deal… It is sealed…and it is happening…I may not see it… I just need to be patient and to keep on believing and hoping. God is sovereign.

So my way of coping whenever frustration tries to outfox me (frustration is really like Swiper the Fox ) is to go back to the Word of God. This is my source of strength… a reminder of God’s faithfulness…and Frustration has no room in my nous and my heart because it is simply otiose to entertain it.

I am boldly confessing that to myself! So, I am holding on.

Nothing but Hokum

Yeah here we go again... The next statement is one of the most over- used sentences, "Life is a cycle." It goes up and down, path may wind and bend but still it orbits around... and you will always repeat the same highs and lows.

I am running out of explanation... I challenge myself but I always arrive at the same conclusion. To fight gravity is to apply the law of aerodynamics... but not all can get a craft that will fly him off to space. In an attempt to suspend yourself in the air, you will always end up falling to the ground. Like the law of nature, there is no point to repugn the things that are bound to happen. Just take heart and face it courageously with your faith.

This piece may be just one of the few hokum thoughts I threw in the air and ended up writing a some sort of amphigory [but only in essay form].

Oh well, I am just ranting and Yes, I have been implying things that have been happening in my life... Should anyone attempt to comprehend what I am babbling about, go figure.

Quiet but not quite

I have been quiet for awhile...as usual busy working. But just to update my blog, I have a few thoughts that are bottled up inside me. There are things that are disturbing me and have been trying to alter my line of thinking. Things are just too trifling to make a ruckus out of it. But I am reminded that a forest fire starts from a small flicker- a careless one too. And whatever it is that is happening in my life, though how little it is, when it is not glorifying God, has to be rectified. Let me also correct that this is not about being holy...but this is about serving a Holy God.

To recall, God does not tolerate even that what we call gray areas. God sees black and white and no in between. God does not consent lukewarm attitudes or behavior. Most importantly, God deserves our best. He gives His best- His precious Jesus Christ. And the rightful response is to worship Him, honor Him with our behavior, our mind, in things we do and how we deal with others.

Because of this conviction, I fell flat on my face and plead God’s forgiveness. Sometimes, I can’t help but act in my old self, I tend to be morose, disparaging and dismal. Exposing myself is certainly not washing my dirty linen. It is with the purpose to encourage anybody who is also on the same boat that they too will not get discourage. We all are God’s work in progress and that though we are not yet perfect, God by His grace will not leave us nor forsake us but He is encouraging all of us to work it out. That by the grace of God we will overcome whatever challenges that may confront us.

So yeah... Let's work out our spiritual muscles.