Are you intrigued by the title? Surely,
it appears sketchy. You can have different infinitive phrases to complete the
question. But what I have in mind is “What is it like to be married to me?”
That could be one of the toughest questions to answer. I’m sure you will agree
it would be easier to give your answer if the question is directed to your
spouse: “What is it like being married to you?” Then you can fire away and have
a very elaborate essay. The highlights can vary, either you play up and put the
spotlight to the positive side of what your spouse do for you or you can expose
the negative side of your marriage including his failings… I hope you won’t do
the latter because it won’t be ennobling for you to do not to mention you are
making your spouse suffer from the ignominy[1] brought by
washing your linen in public.
Now so much about the digressing
(—forgive me for divagating from the
topic)…
the question pops-up to me like random thoughts normally appear. I was actually contemplating about the upcoming
anniversary, we already had the initial plan so I caught myself mulling over it
again… then while excogitating with the how to make things happen for the
anniversary, I stumbled with that question… “What is it like being married to me?”
I would want my husband to answer that… but then I also want myself to answer
it truthfully… and my mind went looney… then I became antsy. I am not sure if I
could say it is wonderful being married to me. I am not being modest here… I
seriously do not have any idea… He maybe would say it is hard because I am a
difficult person—I have mood swings, I am sensitive and emotional… I feel sad (I recently keep saying to my man“let me grieve” whenever I tend to be miffy and touchy over things
said or done) in a longer period of time not just 48
years but maybe 79 years, which I know for many is
unreasonable and insane. But that’s me…and maybe that gives him so much
challenge to keep up… Perhaps being married to me is like work… it needs tons
of effort because you have to be conscious with what you do even if I am easy
to please… yet having “word of Affirmation” and “Touch”
as my love language/s which are not his, you can only imagine how we express
ourselves differently… Just Imagine, I want to be constantly hugged, held
hands… and I need to hear “I love yous” “I miss yous” … and to be appreciated
in what I do not just for him but even the things I do for myself… I need to
hear those positive things for me to feel loved, strengthened, and assured. But
my man speaks different love languages… and he does serve me and give me gifts
but those acts do not fill my love bank…it is not that I do not appreciate him…
I find that sweet and thoughtful but it doesn’t speak love to me—yeah! As blunt
as that but really it doesn’t brim my love tank to a good shape....(coz it gets deflated from time to time)
I could go on but…having said
those things, I know you have enough details to come up with your intuitive
assumption of what is it like to be married to me… J
[1] I like the sound
of the word because it equates the highest degree of humiliation than saying
“embarrassment” coz it downplays the hurt by fine-tuning the effect with the
choice of words—though it is very important to be refined and sensitive with
our words…but in this case I find it necessary to choose strong word to show
how atrocious it is to dishonor your spouse in the open.
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